The introduction~ ^_^

Hi everyone~

This is Uzuki here (lit: april in old japanese, i think.) ^_^ self proffessed otaku, manga artist, and idiot extraordinaire will try to share his life full of meaningless events.

What you need to know about Uzuki?

well~ he's just finished secondary school and now he's effectively a useless idiot. ^_^

He didn't get good results for SPM.
He can't quite let go of the past.
He doesnt work.
He didn't enroll himself in a college or something. yet.
He's kinda like a ronin~ no job, no school, no girlfriend, no nothing.
And he just realised he got addicted to the internet. ^_^ how worse could it get?

Just about the only thing he's good at is abandoning his projects. You could call him the 'king of unfinished dreams' He's got ideas. But never really gets to make them happen 100%.

well. there~ he was lying ^_^ he's good at another thing.. drawing. Well, he's not the next Picasso or the next big manga artist, he's kinda like a amateur. well. Reaaallly amateur.

What does he plan to do?

well. that is the question. ^_^

Uzuki here needs to escape his home before he is bored to death.He needs to be useful. He needs to study. To absorb knowledge like a sponge~ The internets is serving him fairly well at the moment, but sooner or later, he must be weaned of this~ so, he has to decide where to go from here.

He's interested in Animanga, so he's tempted to take the path of the artist.. BUT... He's also interested in technical things like engineering~ so he's stuck in a dilemma?

Do the thing he really wants? or the things he needs to do first, then only break off the beaten path~

Sometimes you wish you could take "The road not taken" without the consequences.

Whats going on in Uzuki's mind?

well~ I'd say, his mind is probably underutilised.. he's watching anime and reading manga.. being berated by his parents and essentially rotting at home typing this on his battered 2nd hand laptop with a battery life of 2 minutes.

In this state~ his mind plays tricks on him~ conjuring images of past events, reflecting on the times he didn't do well enough, or when people treated him unfairly. His mind also wanders to people who seem to have lost contact with him.. people who for some reason stay in his mind though he yearns to relieve himself of that burden~

Uzuki seems loud and cheerful enough outside, but at times, he can't seem to really blend into the crowd~ such situations have made him a bit of an "introvert" in the last years of school life~ he really shut himself out from the hypocrites that he despises~

While he can still mingle with 'the general public"~he still feels lonely at times. (he is, after all, the only child in the family, and he's stuck at home) And it doesn't help that a close acquantaince of his who keeps in contact regularly, keeping Uzuki sane, is now in National Service~ rendering his usually inactive phone completely silent- because no one ever calls Uzuki, unless they need his services~ ^_^

Why he started this blog?

Well~ beyond the more obvious reasons along the lines of: "self promotional material", "thick-skinned-jerk", "shameless-punk", "beh pai seh~", Uzuki plans to rid himself of this ennui that plagues him, for he needs an outlet to vent his frustrations~ leak his creative juices~ and stimulate his senses~ for Uzuki believes he can improve upon his unworthy self by seeing the world and himself in third person~

So for those who've succesfully read through this essay chock full of misinformation, biased commnts, and half truths without feeling nauseous or throwing up~ Thanks, have one on me and cheers! ^_^